I wasn’t bothered at all by the erratic weather the previous quarter that I was up earlier than usual on Thursday (July 10) since a not so usual feeling of bliss paid me a visit. I was scheduled for a check up with Dr. Igaña, my ever kindest, loveliest OB then learned that I can expect to deliver within the weekend at the latest-a process they called IE. I decided I needed to get myself a haircut after that, whilst mild and manageable contractions were coming but we still managed to get home. By 7pm the contractions were intense and unbearable that we had to rush to the hospital and just as soon as I got off from the cab, my waterbag broke.
I completely understand hospital SOPs but some could either make you loose your nerves or just laugh it with the pains away. Who would think that even as I have my whole being in agony, one of the student intern would ask you questions like, “Mam, ang imo bang first sexual contact is with your husband?” I was trying to figure out if I should either shout “cut it out! Bloody hell!” or squeeze the life out of her with the dextrose. But then you’d rather grieve for a little more of fortitude rather than lose it coz the piercing contractions are still coming like ire. Nonetheless they’re the same contractions that steer the sucking in air process that after two hours of doing that, I just have to give it all I’ve got to end the pains I said strongly to myself. That was at 10:25 P.M. when the doctors and interns made their hurrahs as the baby struggled out. I took a look at her while she was cleaned up and the first thing I noticed was her lighter skin color as compared to when I delivered Gian.
We or rather her tatay especially chose the name Eesha Akila for her where “Eesha” means river and “Akila” means noble or wisdom in different languages. Early the next day, Dr. Amatong, our baby’s pedia came after he checked the baby saying Eesha moves quite a lot. Then the visit of friends made it all ever more wonderful.
We have been experiencing many difficulties lately but when I look at my new miracle, I feel positively different and know that we could go on and will survive all these. I now live and believe in things different from those in the past since I may have been tired or burned out with what I used to passionately want to do. These are the things I discovered about myself because I am looking at my family who deserves nothing less. Eesha completes this family, with her we will fulfill dreams and cheer on passions as heavens would allow. She makes me marvel on God’s grace even more. She is my personal miracle.
